Monday, May 2, 2016


When I left you all last, my husband was about to deploy and I was more focused on spending time with him before he left. I had plans of moving back home and with that had thought I would have plenty of help and time to blog. In all actuality it wasn't that easy. If anything it was harder than I had ever imagined. Yes I had family and friends around but it just isn't the same as having your spouse.

Living in someones else's home that is completely different from your own and not being able to stick to the routines I had set in place for Grayson, made it all the more challenging. We were used to getting up at six and bed time for him is seven. He sleeps like I do which means the littlest of noises wakes him. Being were everyone is up till midnight and that part of my family is extremely loud, meant many adjustments. On top of that, shorty after getting settled in back in Tennessee, we went out to Arizona for Christmas. I have to say my kid is great at adjusting and goes with the flow as best he can.

After Christmas I started going to the gym with my best friend. Having a gym buddy was great! It was truly one of the best parts of going back home. I soon got word that my husband would be coming home from deployment sooner than we had thought! Great news but it meant having to be back in New York by the end of February. So then began the process of trying to find a place to live off post and getting everything set up to move in. I had my brother and dad helping move my things in from storage. They had to leave the next day which meant a mad rush to get everything unpacked and put away within a few days. Honestly it didn't have to be done. My husband would've helped when he got back but I really wanted him to be able to just relax when he got here.

He ended up getting stuck for a week on the way home so I got it all unpacked, all the while with Grayson running around. Heck I even impressed myself. I got all the grocery shopping done, furniture put together, bought some new furniture, paid bills and hooked up the cable and Internet. Super woman status over here. I have some mad respect for all the single parents out there. I only had to go a few months on my own and even then I wasn't completely on my own. It was a real struggle for me most days. Twenty four hours a day it was Grayson and I. I got to see a movie on my birthday and would go to the gym after he was asleep for the night. Besides that it was all me.

Justin has been home now for about a month and a half. His home coming was not what I expected. This being both of our first times dealing with a deployment, we weren't sure what to expect. In a sense I had started to feel single. Not in the dating sort of way but in the fact that it had just been the two of us for months and we had made new routines and ways of doing things. Then he comes home and we have to integrate him back into our daily lives. It didn't take long for Grayson to get used to him being around. He was shy at first but you can blame him. He had last seen his daddy when he was six months old.

Life finally got back normal. Daddy is back to doing the bed time routine. We're all back on our old schedules and life is good! Justin got two weeks of leave or vacation time. Since it happened to be right before Graysons first birthday, we made a trip back down to Tennessee to have his party with all our friends and family. I'll be making a separate post for that. Now that we are home and life is finally slowing down somewhat, I am really hoping to get back on here. The goal is to catch up on all of his monthly updates. That way I have them when I start working on his baby book again. And to start back with the fitness aspect and holding my self accountable again.

Lets see how much I can knock out while Grayson is asleep today!

Sunday, November 8, 2015

I know... I lied!

I said I was back and then I dropped off the face of the planet. But let me explain.

My husband currently serves in the army. He was scheduled to deploy and we spent our time together. We were busy making as many memories as possible. We took our son to local places my husband went to as a child. We had a Thanksgiving dinner and put up our Christmas tree. Yeah it's early but I don't care what people say. I wanted my husband to be a part of our sons first Christmas. We spent as much quality time together as possible.

Now that we are starting to get into a groove without him here, it's time to focus on my goals again. I'm going to review the ones I already set and make the necessary changes. I will add my monthly goals also. I read something the other day that I wanted to share:

So here is the plan. I started off with 30 seconds of exercise. But for Krystal, she is a bit advanced already for that! So we started with a 15 minute walk. The idea is NOT to do exactly what you are capable of doing. Not to push yourself to the limits RIGHT AWAY. Trust me... there will be time to prove you can go 1 minute instead of 30 seconds. Time to prove you can go 30 minutes instead of 15. Time to prove you can go up that hill at the end of our block. But that's NOT what we are doing right now. Because right NOW... It is about forming a habit. A routine. That is what we are doing at first. And that is what we have to keep in mind. It's about forming habits. The exercise program can be tweaked later. Once it's become a part of your life. But at first, the idea is simple. DO IT. EVERY DAY. And when it's a habit, then you can worry about the rest.
Read the whole thing here.

I was looking for articles on sugar detox. I read that and loved it. Although the whole post wasn't what I was looking for, that paragraph holds a lot in it for me. I'll be setting my goals for this month around this principal.

Army Life

This is most definitely not a life style for everyone. I have to hand it to all the men and women who serve and all of the spouses who hold down the fort when they are gone. I was very apprehensive when I met my husband. I lived in a town right off of a military base and it felt like everyone you met was a part of the military in some way. I told him I wasn't interested in someone joining the army because I know myself well enough. I knew I would struggle with deployments. Next thing you know I fell in love with him and this became our reality.

When he left for basic training it was hard. Mostly because we spent everyday together and I could talk to him or see him whenever I wanted. While in basic I lived for his letters. He wrote me everyday! We occasionally got a ten minute phone call but for four months, he was gone. I did much better than I imagined and it gave me hope for the future.

Now here we are and he is gone. The past year and a half he has been gone plenty of times. Mostly for a week or two and once a whole month. This is different. He's deployed and I took it hard. Time flew the last month. The day came and went and I still haven't wrapped my head around it. I cried my eyes out. I know it will get easier as time goes on and we figure out our new normal. It's the little things that get you. I brought in a shirt he left in the car. It smelled just like him and instantly I was in tears.

Maybe this time is rough because I am not at home like I was for basic. I had all my family and friends around. This time around we have a six month old son. This time around he is going to war. This time around we've been living together for a year and a half. This time around I am not working. I have reminders of him every where I turn. The peanut butter crackers he loves in the pantry and laundry I still need to fold.

It's hard not knowing when I will get to talk to him next. But in all of this I have to think about how hard all of this is on him. He has to miss our son growing up for a while. He will miss his first Christmas and his first birthday. He won't get to see his son, wife, family or friends for a while. He doesn't have the luxury of getting to watch his football games or getting to eat what he would like. He has it harder than I. This is why I stay strong. For him! For my son. I don't want him to worry about us on top of every thing else.

This is definitely not the life I imagine living but it sure is a great life. Everyone has things they have to go through and so maybe ours is going to be pretty hard at times. But he is worth it, our family s worth it. The time apart just makes you not take for granted all the time you get together.

Saturday, October 31, 2015

Grayson: Five Months!

Month five has been a crazy month to say the least. We started it off with getting your letter back from The White House! Who knew that sending them a birth announcement would get you a letter "signed' by the president and first lady? I thought it was really special and something that will make it into the baby book.

We've taken the baby food slowly. You got to have some a couple of times last month. This month you got to try a bunch of new fruits and vegetables. Your favorites seem to be sweet potatoes and green beans for vegetable and pears for fruits.

You have learned what the TV is all about and love Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. You actually take interest in football when it is on. I tell everyone you are going to be my little football star. You found your toes last month but it has become routine that every time I change your diaper you grab your feet and those cute little toes are in your mouth.

We decided to go to the pumpkin patch early this year for two reasons. The first we were going to be traveling into the middle of October and I didn't want it to be to cold when we got back for you to enjoy it. Secondly, your grandmother came in from Germany the day we got back and I wasn't sure what she had planned on doing while here. Old McDonald's Farm was a farm your father had been to as a child so it made it all the more special to be able to take you there. You got to pet and feed the goats which you thought was funny. You hated going into the chicken coop and actually started crying. You seen a reindeer and fed a calf. We stopped in the pumpkin patch and let you choose a tiny pumpkin of your own. All in all it was a great family day that I won't likely forget.

The rest of the month was filled with traveling and I mean lots of traveling! It was planned for us to go to Tennessee for your cousin Brodies first birthday and at the last minute your grandparents wanted us to come a couple days early so we could go to California. Your great great grandpa isn't doing so well and it will probably be the only time we would be able to make it out there to say our goodbyes. I left the house at 10 pm because you hate your car seat and I knew you would scream during the day. I met your grandpa in Pennsylvania when he got off work and finished the drive. It was a miserable trip for the adults who only got an hour or two of sleep. We didn't get to TN until three pm. Not sure why it took us so long but it wasn't fun.

We had the next day to do whatever and since I was home we had to go see Auntie Kerry on her day off which meant a late night for mommy. Those are hard to pull now because no matter what time I go to bed you are up at six. Then we were off to California. Longggg day as well. We left around your bedtime. It was your first flight so I was nervous but you did great. I chalk that up to being your bedtime so you slept and I kept you awake between flights. We flew into San Fransisco and still had a two or three hour drive to Sacramento. That was after we resolved the problem with the rental car! That was another night I got in bed around three am and was up with you early in the morning.

We had a family reunion while there. Lots of people we've never met but for it being another long day for you, you did great like always. It always surprises me how much of a people person you are because at home you aren't around that many people. But you never mind who holds you and love when anyone pays you attention. The one thing I looked forward to the most was the hotel pool. You are my water baby and love to float in the bath from day one. You even roll over and float on your belly in the tub. Just like I thought, you loved the pool. You are a natural and I want so badly to get you into some baby swimming classes. You got to meet my aunt Tammy for the first time on this trip. She used to live near everyone and I know she really wanted to meet you.

We had another long night flying home. Your cousin Brodie is a hoot. You were really interested in him but he only wanted to hit you. He also didn't like you playing with his toys. Ha! Ha! I still think you two will be best buddies when you get a little older. We got to celebrate his first birthday before heading home. It gets me so excited for your first birthday. Right before heading home we both got a cold... It was your first time being sick and yet again you surprised me. You didn't act any different from your happy little self.

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- I love you mommy.  

(Grayson wanted to help with the post, daddy translated.)